Well, I have lived kind of a long time now, and have had what could be called an eventful life. But even for me it is unusual for quite so much seriously #@%&ed-up $#!+ to be crammed into a few hours of one day.
I'd like to tell you all about it, but I honestly don't believe I am a good enough writer to do it any kind of justice. Let's just say that I learned, or more likely re-learned, a long list of important life lessons today and tonight. I suspect a number of other important lessons were lost on me -- that they went right over my head.
A few I did get were these:
(1) Sinking or falling down in socio-economic status and becoming impoverished is not just depressing and humiliating. It's also dangerous. It can and will put you in real physical jeopardy, and not in a fun way, when you sail
"Into the blue again/after the money's gone
Once in a lifetime/water flowing underground." -- Talking Heads, "Once In A Lifetime" (c.1980)
(2) Most things and people and situations really are usually just about what they appear to be, and usually play out just about as you would expect them to. You will probably come to grief by letting yourself hope "this time will be different."
(3) Don't naively accept other people's self-descriptions or self-assessments at face value. Just because they tell you they are not what they appear to be is not a good reason to believe them. Watch what they do, rather than listen to what they say. (See:Lesson 2.) Except when they let slip some unguarded statement that gives away where they're really coming from, opening a window into the darkness of their hearts.
"Never get out of the boat." as Captain Willard said, in Apocalypse Now (1979)
I could go on, but I don't think I will.
"Experience is a stern teacher, but men will learn from no other." Like most important life lessons, most of today's were costly, or were almost costly. One nearly cost me a finger or three. I'm okay, though. Not a scratch. Not a drop of blood drawn, or not from me, anyway. Still it was as close as anything in years, maybe since 1997 or '98. But all I'm really out this time is some cash I could not afford, and maybe $80 or $90 worth of property I also couldn't spare.
When I had to set forth again after sunset, I noticed a reddish full moon rising, still low in the east. A full moon. Maybe that explains it. That, and the fact that the Memorial Day weekend has always been super-unlucky for me, like a three or four-day extended Friday the Thirteenth. Another quote comes to mind:
"Once an inhuman voice was lifted in awful mockery—the cry of an ape, Bêlit said, adding that the souls of evil men were imprisoned in these man-like animals as punishment for past crimes. But Conan doubted, for once, in a gold-barred cage in an Hyrkanian city, he had seen an abysmal sad-eyed beast which men told him was an ape, and there had been about it naught of the demoniac malevolence which vibrated in the shrieking laughter that echoed from the black jungle.
Then the moon rose, a splash of blood, ebony-barred, and the jungle awoke in horrific bedlam to greet it.(1934)
"The practical reason for freedom is that freedom seems to be the only condition under which any kind of substantial moral fiber can be developed — we have tried law, compulsion and authoritarianism of various kinds, and the result is nothing to be proud of." -- Albert Jay Nock, "On Doing the Right Thing", in The American Mercury (1925)
"Men in a state of decadence employ professionals to fight for them, professionals to dance for them, and a professional to rule them." -- G.K. Chesterton
"No man is so exquisitely honest or upright in living, but that ten times in his life he might not lawfully be hanged." -- Montaigne
"But to live outside the law, you must be honest." -- Bob Dylan
"Unjust laws can be altered, as well as made. There's a new spirit in the world. Taxed out of existence, robbed of their independence by the government, the people must fight back how they can. What we're doing here is just a pin-prick. But a thousand pin-pricks put together ... " -- Christopher Syn
"Not in the flight of thought, but in the act alone is there freedom" - Dietrich Bonhoeffer
"The human race divides politically into those who want people to be controlled and those who have no such desire ... Must be a yearning deep in the human heart to stop other people from doing as they please. Rules, laws — always for the other fellow." -- Robert Heinlein